I guess there is no such thing as outside of God's will... But I have to admit I think this might be faster than I anticipated.
Went to the ER this morning because I couldn't breathe after getting up and going to the bathroom. There they ran some tests and told me just about the last thing I wanted to hear. I have pneumonia in both lungs and the tumors are blocking airways on both sides.
They are keeping me in the hospital. I don't know what to say. If God is making this impossible to get out of to teach me something, it doesn't get much more impossible than this.
This is all coming down faster than anyone thought. I'm scared. I cry a lot, Lisa is crying a lot. The little man screaming in my head is overwhelming now. I am drowning. I need some major help. To be honest at this rate I might not make it beyond Wednesday.