During chemo and recovery from surgery I didn't much think about "my end destination" as it were. I spent a lot of time focusing on doing what I needed to do to get better and heal up.
More recently I have been thinking about the world after this world. Thinking a bit about what God has promised: no more tears, or pain. I don't know that that had much appeal to me before this last year. Knowing there would be no more pain is one thing when you haven't had a lot of pain in your life, but after going through such intense chemo and then such a serious surgery, it got me to thinking more about what I am going through here on earth.
Which leads me to think a bit about this Guatemala trip that I might be going on here in a week or so. If we are working towards Heaven while we are here on earth (What on Earth on you living for Heaven's sake?) it seems to me that no matter what my physical condition if God calls me to do something that I must do it. He's given me the health I have right now so there we go. In fact He gave me my health for the first 24 years of my life so I trust He knows what He is doing.
Not really sure if I am going to Guatemala yet or not, I'm planning on it, but if my health prohibits it I won't go.
~B.