I have to admit that I'm a little frustrated that it's been a week since I entered the hospital and now I am how a bit of a disappointment that I am scheduled go back to chemo early next week. I'm not really sure what I'm going to do with the next day or two at home, but Lisa and I were planning on the island this weekend. I will very much appreciate a place that is not Virginia Mason.
This morning I had a little break down in front of the PCT, Nurse and Doctor. I really was having issues with no one telling me WHEN I might be leaving and continually prolonging the experience by saying something like, "Oh, you need more blood, or platelets, or, lets wait until tomorrow morning and see what your blood works look like." With the chemo you get an end time. With this one you get to watch and see if they can keep you there any longer than normal.
I probably shouldn't be so cynical, I'm just frustrated with the situation. This is 2 days longer than I've staid over before. And I'm looking at starting a 5 day chemo session next week. I am tired and need strength.
~B.
I can understand your frustration with your hospital recovery visits, especially in light of your next chemo coming up soon and being longer. I keep remembering what Lyn Rasmussen told me in regard to chemo--"The only thing that is sure it that each round will be different--each day has new challenges."
ReplyDeleteI will pray for strength for you and Lisa as you face the challenge of each day. Lyn also reminded me yesterday that God is with you through all of this. I am also reminded, right now, of His promise to help you. You might take some time to ponder what you would say if the Lord came to you, specifically, and said, "How can I help you today?" I find thinking about things like that lead me into wonderful conversations with my Father.
Margaret, Grandma and I will be over this morning to see you. I'll call first.
I love you,
Mom